Settle?

Dear Life,

I must admit that recently I have felt myself zooming along into a mode of 'settling.'  Whenever I think of the word 'settling' I feel as though I must turn and sprint in the other direction. But times are changing, I'm embracing this word in terms of recognizing my strengths and talents and what fills my cup  of joy so that I can pour into others.

My whole life, up to 2 years ago, was spent preparing for the future, a career, financial independence, etc.

Then, a job offer before graduation threw that out the window. In a mode of not settling, I accepted the job.

The past 2 years have been spent not settling and saying 'yes' to many opportunities. I thank God I have said 'yes' because I have learned more about myself and my inner core: who I am? what I like? what depletes me? what lights my fire?

And, I have had to do this every single day...consistently. It shapes you. I'd be a liar if I said differently.

Now, I absolutely know that the next 6 weeks are a 'season of endurance' for me. It's the final sprint towards SOLs, Relay, extended day, YL, LAX season and a bigger pursuit I'm taking on TBA. All intermingled.

I can check back to my blog a year ago and see the same 'season of endurance.'

Perhaps, June will bring about change. A pruning of my pursuits/talents so as to savor all that I'm working so hard to make.

Just a thought.

I always said I want to work to live not live to work.

I don't want this to sound like Eeyore and that I'm moping. I'm not complain, but explaining.

While I used to not want to touch 'settling' with a 10 ft pole, now I'm beginning to shorten the pole to 7ft to taste it.

Aside: I will never settle when it comes to boys, chocolate, or wine.

Ecclesiastes 3:1 (NIV) There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens.  Presently, I cling to this verse. Ruminate on it.

But here's the cool thing...I totally believe in seasons of life. I totally believe in experiencing the now and living full-heartedly there. I do feel as though the next few months will bring about another season of life. The season of life post-college where I can't claim that "I'm a recent college graduate card."  I truly feel as though I'm about to straddle 2 seasons of life as I set myself up for the next one.

Moral of the Story: To settle? or not to settle? I guess it just depends on the situation. I used to abhor the word.