Momma Monday: You can't outrun Momma's prayers!

Well, here it is the eve of New Year's Eve.



I hope you had a wonderful Christmas.

I don't make New Year's Resolutions--my life is an ongoing New Year's Resolution.  I am always making "self talk" resolutions--many become realities others not.   New Year's Eve has never been a big event in my life--it is very insignificant on my radar.  Dave and I are usually sound asleep at midnight--and love it that way.  Different strokes for different folks!

A resolution that I make everyday which has still not become a reality, but I am working on it-- embrace and enjoy the wonderful, purposeful adults my Worth and Anni are.  Relax and enjoy it!  It is very hard not to perceive them as my babies.  In their adult lives and careers, most of their peers don't even know Dave and I and don't even think of them as someone's children.  Worth and Anni are their own people and successes.  Now, I am not saying that Dave and I didn't play a role  (and still do) in their lives--just as they do in ours.   But, our roles have changed.  

I get more reality checks in this respect when it comes to Anni--she lives in our community.  How many times do I observe the wonderful, purposeful, and content professional and personal life she has made for herself.  I am still in awe with  how competent she is in her classroom and in her professional, community, volunteer, spiritual, and personal life.

I always celebrate Worth, but I am not as privy to his life because he lives in Williamsburg now, and last year in North Carolina and before that in Pennsylvania.  He is a college tennis coach.  For the past 10 days, one of his past tennis players has been staying with us.  For 4 of these days, Worth was in Phoenix on a recruiting trip and Stack stayed with us.  It was a reality check and blessing viewing Worth through his former player's eyes.

Dave is much better at embracing the adults that Anni and Worth are.  Now I am not a hovering Mom--Anni and Worth would never support that behavior.  However,  embracing this season in my life is an internal battle.

When Worth called me this morning at 7:30 am to tell me he had landed at BWI and was now taking the MARC train to Union Station, then Metro to Reagan, then picking up his truck and driving home--I said "Good, I have been praying for you all night (it is a Mom's radar--I woke up several times during the night and thought Worth is in an airplane flying across the United States and I would say a prayer for his safety.)  When I told him this he said, "Now, Mom"  how many times does he say this (OFTEN!!!!).

Also, during the night I dreamed that Portis (who I think I substituted for Anni and Worth)
had returned as a great dane but with Port's face. He and I were in the backseat of Anni's car and Anni was driving us home.

WORTH and ANNI will never outrun my prayers!  This is a lyric from an Aberdeen Green song.  They are both wonderful adults--but in my mind's eye they will always be my BABIES!

Wishing you health, resilience, and joy in 2014!