I run 6 miles while watching The Notebook in the Cardio Cinema.

I at least made 6 trips to the 'treat box' to comfort myself with chocolate during school.

Why do I crave chocolate when I really am just trying to run away from the situation-at-hand?

The situation-at-hand is the approaching SOL tests and it's associated hot mess.

I'm sabotaging myself.

I'm living in a cycle of defeat. Burn over 600 calories. Defeat it with chocolate. Repeat.

But, I know that I'm beautifully and wonderfully made by my eternal God.

He wants more for me. I want more for me.

It's time I began to believe that.

To be honest (it's my blog)...during the school day, I depend more on food than God. Maybe it's the secular environment, but it is the one commonality my colleagues and I have.

Is it possible I love and rely on food more that we rely on God?

I in no way desire to be a size 4 nor have guys compliment or whistle at my figure (acutally that freaks me out), I crave to be healthy and strong.

It's time to recalibrate my soul to change for the right reasons or food will eat me alive.

God made us capable of craving so we would always be thirsty for his 'living water.'  I must guide my misdirected cravings to the One who can quench my thirst. Or, there will be consequences.

Moral of the Story: Will I accept the living water of love of God fully? or will I remained parched and hungry? What do you crave?

Maybe, I'll pack carrots tomorrow.